Last night sucked. I wanted Me and Megan to go together as dates. I wanted it to be just like the first mixer. Like that happened. Megan left. She told me the other night she didnt want anything to do with kaleigh and now she tells kaleigh she wants to hang out with her after the mixer.Whats up with that? Is the Megan Miller i once knew gone? Even after we where fighting last night everything was about her. Come on it is my 17th birthday weekend. I dont know much right now i am really hurt, but she shows no affetion or anything. Its weird when i am away from her i miss her every second. when i am around her she is tottally different. Is are relationship just beginning or is it over? I think it is heading south quick. I just want to hold her give her a kiss, be as close as possible. I want her to be the way she used to be. I love her but I know after last night that isn't true for me. Every thing i say she takes as i am being mean and trying to hurt her. I just try to prove my points so she will realize what she has become. I feel I have lost her forever. I feel she doesn't care how i feel anymore. Does she still love me, Did she ever? Or is she just trying to toy with me? The last three days i thought we would be back together. If she would have done something for me wednedsday i would have asked her back out for good. On thursday the same thing. At the mixer i thought i might be able to. Maybe its a sign not to. Maybe i should just not answer my phone when she calls like she did to me. Maybe she is holding me back, maybe i am holding her back. Maybe things just wheren't ment to be. But why do I feel like this, why do i still have that spot in my heart for her. Maybe she is to young to understand. Maybe she is to stubborn, maybe i am to stubborn. All this stuff is going through my head and this is a way for me to breather a little easier. Maybe i should let her deal with it and make her fix it, and if not say mike go be a little whore and fuck them nasty ass sluts. But i don't want to, but somehow she always seems to say mike why don't you go fuck erica, or another gurl. Any girl i talk to she says i am to close to. Should i just not talk to girls anymore? Would that be fair? Why did a girl ask  me for my number last night. Am i better looking than i think, no probably not. Why does no girl compare to Megan? Why is she so fucking hot to me? Why does she look so cute? Why do I love everything about her? Why has she been so different and shown no affection for anything lately? Maybe she just wants me to leave her alone? Should I? What is she thinkin right now? Why does my whole world evolve around her? Are we still gonna get married? Do I hate her? Does she hat me? Can I do better? HELL NO.

MEGAN READ THIS LETS GO BACK OUT LETS BE NORMAL AGAIN. BE MY GIRLFRIEND I WONT LIE YOU DONT LIE. WE DON"T FIGHT. LETS BE A HAPPY COUPLE AGAIN. I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU VERY DEEPLY.

To everyone who tells me to stop talking to Megan FUCK YOU, i dont wanna hear it so save it. Nobody compares to her and i will loose everybody for her i dont care. Dont be my friend. As long as i have her i will make it through life. Right now i feel that with her i wont make it anywhere. I feel like nothing with out her, i feel like a looser. I know when i walk by with her in the hallways guys envy, all them little freshmen envy me when i walk by with her. Well to bad shes not yours shes mine, i hope.

She has changed me as a person. All  her friends think i am a dick. They dont no the half of it. All my friends think she a bitch on the rag 24/7. They dont know the half of it. No matter what i will love her forever. she hasn't smiled in a while me either. Lets just cheer up. Drop everything and be together agaain.

Megan I love you and i wont turn my back on you. I will try my hardest to never make you feel how you made me feel last night. I feel like you turned your back on me forever.

Prom 2005. Me and Megan Miller? Me and a stupid bitch? Me and Megan sayin fuck Prom and watchin movies? Me chillin with my friends? Her with her friends? Only time will tell.what ever it is i am fuckin ready to move on with my fuckin life. Im done being nervous and depressed. If its ment to be than it will happen. If not than it wont.

Today i went to Mac speedway with mike kyle and Brian. It was kewl. Anne called me a little while ago. I guess she has to work. I just got back from autozone. Than i washed my car and cleaned i for back to school. Im hyped no school friday and mixer on thursday. And everyone can get there freak on with freak dancin. Oh well it will be tight.

Peace

mike

Last night me and Davis went to tree's and watched the movie from the night before. I realized Kyle Blanks is a cock block. If he aint getting some than he is gonna block you from it to. Than he tells me man mike you can't i have had a crush on her since 7th grade. Well dude what about that girlfriend you supossedly care so much about. Never mind he doesn't give a shit about her.LOL You should just break up with her before it gets around school and you are made out to be a dick and to cheat on your girlfriend. Oh well. Spring Break was a blast. Becuz of Friday night. I dont want to go back to school. Now that I think about it I have enjoyed this week so much. Friday me and Halsey test drove a truck we didn't even by for like 5 hours. On thursday me and tree stole a 64 inch television. We watched the gamne on it. Picked up Duck last night at 5:00 o clock. Took her home by 9:30 and than me and Davis chilled for a long while at Tree's. Went to Mickey D's and then i went to bed at 12 and woke up at 12. 12 hours of sleep. Hell fuckin yea. Looked at my phone Anne called me at 1:54, of course I was sleepin sorry. Some people lost there ring tones so i dont no when u are calling. Davis got his knew one from mike jones. The thought of school tomorrow makes me wanna die. Been away from all the drama for so long just to go back. Well ill go back to school but not to the drama. I still have no ideal about my life yet. I guess im single but wouldn't put my life on it. Maybe it will be for the best. No more lies or anything.

well Peace

Mike

Megan think about what you say b4 you say it. Dont anna fight with you but you are till lyin in the comment you left. Oh well i still judge gurls and more than ever last nite. I just wanna drop this. Love ya megan

Mike

LAST NITE! Hollty shit.That made the whole Spring Break worth while. I had to leave Anne or we might have regreted something in the morning. I couldnt do that to megan. Just couldn't pull a kyle blanks. Just dont let michelle find out. stupid bitch.(LOL). Even when i was drunk i remembered Megan. But i dont what is between us anyways. I still know i love her. Been fucked up alot this spring brak. But last nite was the bomb. Jen you are hella kewl you need t come back out and party. Morgan you got trashed to.I seen Kevin Marshall trashed also what a site to see. ducky you got trashed hella early and i had to take you home by 10, holly fuck that sucked for you. Any ways ill call her after 3 when she gets off work so i can tell her what i remember about the party. Kirk gave up dome to go home. he even said he was a bitch. lol. KU are some ungreatful bastards.You bout made me cry but i was havin to much fun. Goin to kyle Robisons to see whats up.

Peace

Mike